22 weeks

  • Weight Gain or Loss – I’m getting fatter! Stop it!
  • Size of Baby – 11 inches, the length of a spaghetti squash, apparently, but big enough to make me feel like she’s trying eat me from the inside out…
  • Sleep – I am sleeping better, with my new job, we are going to bed around 10 pm and I am waking up at 4. I’ll usually take a nap for a couple hours in the day somewhere.
  • Exercise – I try to get out and walk every day and take Ophelia outside to see what outside looks like.
  • Maternity Clothes – I haven’t said anything to my boss at the new job because I’m afraid. I’m also still nervous about telling people who I don’t know well that I’m pregnant. With my second, I was super excited about it and told everyone in the world and then miscarried and I still have some nagging anxiety hanging on. Like this is all too good to be true.
  • Best Moment this Week – Hard to say. It’s been a tough week to be prego.
  • Movement – I feel the little blips sometimes. Not very often, and not nearly as often as I did with Ophelia. Ophelia was always moving around like crazy. This one is hardly moves at all and I’m carrying her really low. It’s harder to feel when she’s not up in my ribcage like Ophelia was.
  • Symptoms – I am always hungry and ALWAYS thirsty. I wake up parched several times a night now. I started keeping a water bottle next to my bed so I can avoid 900 trips to the kitchen for a glass of water.
  • Food Cravings – Not really, I think they’ve mostly gone away.
  • Food Aversions – Seafood still. I made clam chowder and that’s actually okay and really good still, but more for its soup properties. I would eat a homeless guy’s boot if it was chopped up and put in a soup.
  • Gender – Girl!
  • Names – Daphne
  • Labor Signs – No thanks.
  • I Miss… brushing my teeth without barfing
  • I Look Forward to… being able to afford some baby stuff. When she’s five months old.

21 weeks

They weren’t able to calculate my actual due date since I went from miscarriage straight to pregnancy, so my weeks are never really consistent. At my 20 week appointment last week, she was measuring closer to 21 weeks, so let’s just say I’m somewhere in the 21-22 range and call it good. :)

  • Weight Gain or Loss – Yeah, I’m not really keeping track. I’ve gotten skinnier this week though. I feel like I never have a belly unless I’ve just eaten something, and a lot of my clothes that I couldn’t fit into at 18 weeks are fitting again. Pregnancy is weird.
  • Size of Baby – Last week she was a banana and this week she’s a carrot. I thought carrots were smaller than bananas but whatever. She’s like 10.5 inches long, apparently.
  • Sleep – I am sleeping better, with my new job, we are going to bed around 10 pm and I am waking up at 4. I’ll usually take a nap for a couple hours in the day somewhere.
  • Exercise – I try to get out and walk every day and take Ophelia outside to see the sun. :) It’s hard because I have had tendonitis in my foot for the last month or so and now I’m feeling it on the back of my legs too. So if you see me, know that it’s not a waddle; it’s a limp. Yeah, I’m 90.
  • Maternity Clothes – I haven’t said anything to my boss at the new job because I’m afraid. I’m also still nervous about telling people who I don’t know well that I’m pregnant. With my second, I was super excited about it and told everyone in the world and then miscarried and I still have some nagging anxiety hanging on. Like this is all too good to be true.
  • Best Moment this Week – I actually felt a kick. I was just watching a movie (actually I’m dragging Steve through Chuck right now), and all of a sudden, a little *blip*. The past 2-3 weeks, movement has been more like just a shifting weight in there. I forgot about the sparkler feeling.
  • Movement – I feel the little blips sometimes. Not very often, and not nearly as often as I did with Ophelia. Ophelia was always like right underneath my skin though, and this one is hidden behind… some other gross birth stuff… so I’m not likely to feel it as strongly until the other stuff moves out of the way. If it does. Does it do that?
  • Symptoms – I am always hungry and ALWAYS thirsty. I wake up parched several times a night now. I started keeping a water bottle next to my bed so I can avoid 900 trips to the kitchen for a glass of water. Other than that, the only one I can think of is nightmares. I had super violent, super disturbing nightmares when I was pregnant with Ophelia too, and guess what? They’re back! YAY!
  • Food Cravings – Not really, I think they’ve mostly gone away.
  • Food Aversions – Seafood still. I made clam chowder and that’s actually okay and really good still, but more for its soup properties. I would eat a homeless guy’s boot if it was chopped up and put in a soup.
  • Gender – Girl!
  • Names – We’ve just started calling her Daphne. And the way Ophelia says “Daff-a-ney!” is the cutest.
  • Labor Signs – No thanks.
  • I Miss… really, really good and yummy fish.
  • I Look Forward to… being able to afford some baby stuff. When she’s five months old. :)

20 weeks

HALF. WAY. THERE. I am so excited! Dying, actually.

  • Weight Gain or Loss – I gained four pounds THIS WEEK. Nurse said it was normal, but I’ve gained about 5 pounds this pregnancy, and FOUR OF THEM WERE IN THE LAST WEEK. Soy monstro!
  • Size of Baby – We are at the size of a banana now. 
  • Pregnancy Milestones – 20 weeks. I’m halfway. If it was still cool, I would say WAZZZZZZZZZZAAAP! right now. I’ll spare you. 
  • Sleep – Okay, I seriously take so many naps. SO MANY. 
  • Exercise – I’m actually doing better. I try to walk every day.
  • Maternity Clothes – Yes, except the new place I’m working at… um, no one has said anything or asked me about being pregnant… so I wonder if they’re just thinking I’m huge and disgusting, or are just trying to be polite. I’m worried about saying anything though because I don’t want them to fire me. 
  • Best Moment this Week – Finding out we’re having a girl. I’m giddy!
  • Movement – I feel her kicking around sometimes. Not as often as with Ophelia, for sure. Maybe she will be a bit more mellow.
  • Symptoms – Persistent hunger, always thirsty, always tired, dry heaving when I brush my teeth. It’s bearable.
  • Food Cravings – Not really. Every once in a while–like today for lunch–nothing sounds good except one specific thing. Today it was Mexican food. Beans and rice.
  • Food Aversions – I can’t eat seafood still. I expect this to stick around to the end like it did with Ophelia.
  • Gender – GIRL! GIRL! GIRL! GIRL! GIRL! GIRL! GIRL! 
  • Names – Daphne. I liked Emeline but Steve told me why he wasn’t sold on it, and now I don’t like it either. :(
  • Labor Signs – No thanks.
  • I Miss… really, really good and yummy fish. 
  • I Look Forward to… being able to afford some baby stuff. 
  • Weekly Wisdom – I guess it’s normal to gain a billion pounds in a week around week 20. Good to know. 

19 weeks, really?

Almost halfway. I have been avoiding blogging this week because my symptoms are pretty gone and of course it’s stressing me out.

Weight Gain or Loss – a couple pounds total

Size of Baby – an heirloom tomato… seems oddly specific.

Pregnancy Milestones – 19 weeks. If the baby’s still kickin’ it in there, I could find out the gender (but won’t for a week)

Sleep – I sleep whenever possible. Pregnancy + graves = I have problems.

Exercise – I’m actually doing better. I try to walk every day.

Maternity Clothes – You betcha.

Best Moment this Week – A few days ago, I started feeling movement. (I’m not now.)

Movement – A few days ago but nothing anymore.

Symptoms – Persistent hunger, always thirsty, always tired, dry heaving when I brush my teeth. It’s bearable.

Food Cravings – I can eat pretty much anything except seafood, so no cravings.

Food Aversions – Seafood. It makes me so sad. 

Gender – I’ve been getting boy feels.

Names – Daphne or Emeline. (I’m trying to convince Steve of Emeline.) We’ll see. No boy names really.

Labor Signs – I think I had BH contractions the other day. It hurt pretty bad. 

I Miss… really, really good and yummy fish. 

I Look Forward to… gender appointment/baby still alive appointment next week

Weekly Wisdom – Miscarriage is really, really, VERY, WAAAAAAAY unlikely right now, according to my OB. But I still stress, especially because EVERYONE I KNOW has a story about someone who miscarried/had a stillborn in the 2nd or 3rd trimester. Thanks for sharing, y’all! :)

potty training conversations

Sometimes I have conversations with my three-year-old and I forget that A) She’s really only three years old (still relatively new to the whole “being a person” thing); and B) that the conversation is about pooping in her diaper (not getting to wear a Catarina Kittycat dress) versus pooping in the potty (getting to wear a Catarina Kittycat dress). 

Me: Why are you sad?
O: I’m happy and sad.
Me: Okay why are you happy?
O: Because you’re not mad at me anymore.
Me: Why are you sad?
O: Because you yelled at me. 
Me: I know, I’m sorry. I got frustrated because I forget  sometimes you’re not ready to do things I want you to do.
O: I know because sometimes you forget that I’m just your baby.

It’s easy to forget. Especially when your three-year-old has the attitude of a 17-year-old. But when she said that, it really struck me that she is just my baby and she always will be. We’ve had the “big girl vs. baby” conversation with her a million times and I think I’m just done trying to use that rhetoric with her. Maybe I’m not ready for her to graduate from babyhood. So do the potty training thing on your own terms, like you do with everything else, Loafs. We’ve got time.

preschool days

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Ophelia has just completed her first week of preschool. And she’s not an idiot! After she came home Wednesday with a worksheet of letters that she was supposed to trace, and they were all just colored in, I started to wonder if putting her in the level up class (3-4 year olds, instead of 2-3 year olds) was a good idea. Her communication skills (listening/talking) seem to be really good for her age and she communicates better with older kids than younger, so I wanted to put her in the older class. But when I saw the work she brought home, I wondered if that was normal or if my kid might not be advanced enough to be playing with the big dogs. (Although she’s a giant and towers over most of the kids anyway.) 

I asked her teacher about it after class today, if she thought that Ophelia was in the wrong class and she said no, not at all. She said “In fact, Ophelia is our best listener. She always follows directions and does just what we ask her to do.” Then she showed me pictures she had taken of Ophelia doing her “work assignments” because she thought it was so amazing! (I know, my mommy heart is glowing! Super Why and Daniel Tiger must be doing a really good job!)

Ophelia was the only one in the class who could identify the number six (I don’t know why that number specifically, she’s never given me any indication that she even speaks English when I ask her to identify numbers and letters), and knows A, B, and C, and what the sounds are. She showed me a photo of some play-doh activity that they did where they took pieces of the play-doh and used the pieces to trace numbers. She might have scribbled all over the tracing paper, but those play-doh chunks were perfectly organized. Her teacher told me she was amazed and that Ophelia was the only one who seemed to understand and actually do the activity.

Some other gems that Ophelia has picked up from preschool:

  • She now raises her hand when she wants to ask me a question. It’s not horrible.
  • She has two teachers, Rachel and Jamie/Angela. Rachel exists. There is no Jamie or Angela.
  • Ophelia’s favorite friend in preschool is Jack. There is no Jack in her class. 
  • A is for “Alligator! AAAAAAAAAHHHH! Give me back my apple!”
  • B is for “Bup, bup, bup, oh yeah, it’s BUBBLE TIME!”
  • C is for “Crocodile! Cuh, cuh, cuh! I mean… alligator! AAAAAAAHHHHH! Give me back my apple!” (C stands for something else that is not Crocodile but I can’t remember what it is and Ophelia is obsessed with crocodiles.)
  • There is a fish that Ophelia occasionally gets to feed at preschool. Except there’s not. And she doesn’t.

So that’s the update. I’m pretty sure I need to start her on her college applications pretty soon. She’s like some sort of play-doh prodigy.

18 weeks

Alright, on Mondays I’m only 17 weeks and 5 days but I’m just doing it right now because I am on that high that comes from having a good OB appointment where everything was good and the baby is good and feeling good.

Weight Gain or Loss – I gained a pound this week.

Size of Baby – We’ve got a bell pepper on our hands.

Pregnancy Milestones – 18 weeks. My older sister miscarried/had a stillbirth at 18 so this week is kind of a trigger week for me. And yes, my sister is amazing.  

Sleep – I take about 5 naps a day, and sleep until noon on Sundays (and still take two naps after church). I have problems.

Exercise – I’m an exercise failure, but this week I plan to go to the rec center and see if I can get some walking/jogging done while Ophelia is at preschool. (It was her first day today. She loooooved it.)

Maternity Clothes – I’m wearing maternity clothes and some other clothes I had when I was fat and everyone wondered if I was pregnant.

Best Moment this Week – Since it’s technically the same week, getting that blessing from Steve. My heart needed it. Also, this morning, I went and got a variety of deli meats while Ophelia was at school and I just devoured the best roast beef sandwich of my life. Don’t lecture me about deli meat/pregnancy. I would die without it.

Movement – I still haven’t felt anything, I didn’t feel anything with Ophelia until I was two weeks. So no movement anyway, but sometimes when I’m laying down (most of my life), I can kind of feel it, like a pit or something, and I squish on it. I’m so weird.

Symptoms – Morning sickness (in the MORNING–imagine that!), my body is again in constant starvation mode, I’m tired ALL THE DANG TIME again, and the pregnancy rage is back. Oh, pregnancy rage. It’s so irrational and scary. 

Food Cravings – Ice water and beef jerky and spaghetti sauce. Also anything that I see someone else eating or in a photo.

Food Aversions – Seafood. It makes me so sad. 

Gender – I would love another little girl but would honestly be happy either way. But seriously, I want a girl.

Names – Daphne or Emeline. (I’m trying to convince Steve of Emeline.) We’ll see. No boy names really.

Labor Signs – Not yet.

I Miss… really, really good and yummy fish. I got a little sad walking past the salmon at Costco this morning. 

I Look Forward to… gender appointment in two weeks.

Weekly Wisdom – Miscarriage is really, really, VERY, WAAAAAAAY unlikely right now, according to my OB. But I still stress.

I'm not really sure why I'm including this one. I was looking for something else and came across this and now I'm posting it. She's so weird.

I’m not really sure why I’m including this one. I was looking for something else and came across this and now I’m posting it. This was a year ago, but she’s still this weird.